Turning one of life’s pages

It was one month ago today that I awoke at 3:30am to find my precious Allie dead on the bathroom floor. The last month has been the most painful of my life, but I’m doing better — thanks in no small measure to you and the hundreds of emails I’ve received from friends, former co-workers, family, and people I don’t even really know.

One friend called to say that he was so inspired by things I wrote about the importance of every moment that he swallowed hurt pride and reconnected with his daughter. She had apparently been quite rebellious, and he was pissed. They weren’t talking to each other, but now they are.

I’ve been drawn closer to my own children through this.

I’ve made new friends and discovered tribe members I likely wouldn’t have met otherwise.

These are silver linings in the dark cloud of her passing. I’m sure there are many others.

I miss my sweetie, but the agony has faded, and I’m busy preparing to move forward. I still have bad days, but the important thing is I’m letting myself have them. I won’t pretend to be strong. That’s just so much bullshit in the wake of such a loss.

I’m creating a memory book, having a dumpster delivered next weekend, giving notice to move August 1st (don’t know where just yet — likely just a smaller place here), planning a garage sale, and keeping busy with writing and clients.

Turning the page on this is what I must do, and I know that’s what she would want me to do. I have so many sweet memories, and she will always occupy a special place in my heart.

Thank you for being you and for asking how I’m doing.

Comments

  1. LOUISE HENKLE says

    HANG IN THERE TERRY. KEEP POSITIVE THOUGHTS, KEEP YOU MEMORIES IN A SAFE AS YOU PREPARE TO MOVE ON .
    THAT IS WHAT WILL HELP YOU GET THROUGH EACH DAY ..
    ..ONE AT A TIME .
    GOD BLESS YOU IN ALL YOU DO
    LOUISE

  2. Todd Mundt says

    Watching you present at Beyond Broadcast, I thought a lot about that difficult balance of looking back and pressing forward. You seem to have found the balance that works for you and I’ve been amazed at your stamina. All the best to you as you work through this difficult time.

  3. I must ask; did they learn how she died?

  4. Alan, I should get autopsy results in another couple of weeks. Stay tuned.

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